At every new encounter there is a new disappointment. At every attempt to discover somebodies world there is an experience of deep emptiness. Each and every time I feel cheated by the other, from the outside they seemed so beautiful so promising so alluring. From inside they are rotten, there thinking, there vision is so poor and outdated.
They have invested all there investment on the outside. It looks shining and promising from the distance but from inside they all are beggars bagging for their little happiness. All they are doing is Running away from Pain and time not knowing pain is inevitable and the time will eventually outran them.
Maybe it is my own hollowness, emptiness, meaninglessness, purposelessness, senselessness, ugliness, stupidness, pittyness which is reflected back to me through the other what I am experiencing in these moments of meeting from moment to moment.
Love after first sight