I cannot write tiger philosophy when I am happy or content.  To write tiger philosophy I have to go through a process of catharsis. The fertilization takes place at the meeting with sadness, the pregnancy is  the result  and the birth is the final philosophy.  The process is intense, the meeting is frightening. The pregnancy brings her own risks of not being able to cope with intense mental effort which can leed to a miscarriage.

I write this because I am pregnant of my philosophy not ready to deliver but in process of.  Hence the pregnancy is my savvier, I would suffocate from loneliness if I had not met my sadness.